?

Log in

 
 
24 February 2009 @ 06:45 pm
Esteemation  
We always try so hard to reach for the stars
But who cares when you do get to reach them?
I've been trying all these years to comfort myself
With constant brooding and thoughts of self-pity
"I want to have these, I want to experience these"
"I want to live like this, I want to be like this way"
It's all like that, whispering from my mouth

But then will I only end up being like this?
A shadow for other to trample on?
A dead leaf on the asphalt ignored till it becomes dust?

Maybe it's not yet my time to have those things
Or it could've been now, but fate has it postponed
How will I get past these claustrophobic thoughts?

Maybe it's time to stop letting those things get to me
I have to stop being envious of other people's world
I have to create my world myself, even if in pain
With stars that won't be so hard to reach
Because the stars that shine there
Will only shine for me.
 
 
Current Mood: distresseddistressed
Current Music: Maaya Sakamoto's "Get No Satisfaction" (Quite unfitting for my mood...)
 
 
 
KERSTIEkkoorime on February 24th, 2009 11:48 pm (UTC)
Aww, Dan, nag-LJ ka! Keri lang yan... basta move forward lang parati. :)
curly_topzcurly_topz on February 25th, 2009 09:24 am (UTC)
Thanks Kers!

Ngayon nga lang ako nakapag-LJ uli, dramatic pa. Medyo malungkot lang ako yesterday. For some reason, I just felt down. Maganda naman panahon kahapon. I just felt like pouring out how I feel after seeing some groups of people having fun together sa AS. Ngayon kasi madalas nag-iisa na, minsan na lang magkasama-sama mga magkakaibigan. Pag nagkita naman small talk lang then kailangan nang umalis. Nami-miss ko lang siguro yung mga nakaraan. Dagdag pa diyan iyang lecheng thesis na iyan na lalong nagpapa-stress. Hay. I will move forward and never give up, however small those paces will be. :)
KERSTIEkkoorime on February 25th, 2009 10:27 am (UTC)
Naiintindihan ko yan, pero mas marami naman ang opportunities pag natapos na ang lecheng thesis na yan. Heheh. Magbakasyon ka na lang ng bonggang bongga sa summer! :)